A step forward….

I have been stuck for a while now. Unable to move on from a situation that has not been healthy for me. I tried adding distractions and removing myself physically from the source, but with limited success.

Then I spent about ten days in the company of really good friends. People I have known for decades. People I can be myself with. People who are easy, interesting, and fun. And who care about my wellbeing.

I was looking to find emotional distance from a situation but wasn’t sure it was enough. Until I returned. Something had shifted without any conscious awareness. Somehow the time gave me a degree of perspective.

And that window allowed me the space to see things in a new light. I began to see the situation for what it was, instead of taking everything so personally. Because I was no longer caught up in the thick of it.

And with that came a certain momentum. It is easy to say you’re going to focus on yourself, but when you’re stuck, that’s hard to practice. Having some distance, no matter how slight, is what I needed.

It has allowed me the freedom to pursue what I want. It’s getting out from under the hold someone has over you. It’s moving on with your life. And choosing to let go of something unhealthy for something better.

It’s a first step, but hopefully one of many. Certainly a step in the right direction. There will be missteps and steps that will need to be retraced, but so long as the path is forward, every step is for me.

And as a friend once told me, any movement is positive. You don’t know where you will end up, but if you don’t take that first step, you will never know. And standing still is not an option.