A moment of clarity

I gave up. I had gotten to a point where I felt defeated in an ongoing struggle. I was disappointed, sad, angry, and incredibly frustrated with a situation that was going absolutely nowhere.

In a desperate attempt to reclaim a state of inner calm, it occurred to me that I had a choice. To continue the struggle or to stop resisting it. To just stop fighting.

And then a funny thing happened. A wave of what I can only describe as clarity flooded through me. It was as though I could see through the muck.

The fight no longer mattered. Getting it right no longer mattered. Being understood no longer mattered. All that mattered was finding peace.

It helped that it was early morning, I was by the river, all was still, and I was reading something inspiring. It helped, but that was not necessary.

The feeling that precipitated the moment was sheer exhaustion. I felt worn down by the grind. Beaten, so to speak. I had nothing left.

Holding on to something bad does no good. Hard as it is, it’s so much easier to let the situation go. The burden lifts. Instead of heaviness, you feel light. At ease.

So put down the gloves and step out of the ring. It’s not about winning. Conceding is not a sign of defeat. It’s a sign of strength. And acceptance.

It’s accepting things as they are. And that they may not change. It’s realizing your lack of control over all things external. It’s letting go and just being.

If inner peace is what you’re seeking, you’ll never get it by battling with someone/something. Walk away. It’s your only option. And trust me, it’s worth it.