gobsmacked at 59

A tale of love & loss plus other musings on life….

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  • New year, old me

    As my friends know, I’ve had a challenging few months. I am not proud to admit this, but once again the universe has shown me just how stuck I really am. This time it was a friend who did me in. Someone I hoped would become something more. Once again, that’s not how he saw

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  • Me? Who’s that?

    My sense of self has always been elusive. The emotional instability I experienced eroded any idea of who I might have been. That version of me, healthy and whole, never got a chance to germinate, let alone bud. Absent was the solid foundation. The family dynamic did not allow for much differentiation of self. We

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  • The afternoon of my life

    So where do I go from here? I am in, what Carl Jung calls, “the afternoon of my life”. Per Oliver Burkeman [1], if I am lucky, I have maybe one thousand weeks left. And the worst part is, time is only going exponentially faster…. I have come up with the things I want to

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  • A step forward….

    I have been stuck for a while now. Unable to move on from a situation that has not been healthy for me. I tried adding distractions and removing myself physically from the source, but with limited success. Then I spent about ten days in the company of really good friends. People I have known for

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